Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in SpazzKat's LiveJournal:

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Sunday, November 8th, 2009
12:38 pm	I Dunno The female gamer is no longer the rare an elusive creature it once was. Gamer chicks have become a dime a dozen now and a lot of them are playing video games. While I am not that old I still remember a time when my presence in a gaming store would turn a few heads. Not because I'm pretty, but because I had actual breasts and not man-boobs. This also brings to mind the ratio of male to female geeks. Within a certain radius there tends to be a set number of geeks and circles tend to overlap. I am also reminded of the book "The Knights Next Door" which mentions that if geeks date and then break up it is hard to completely avoid each other because circles will run together and overlap. There are sometimes only so many gamers to go around for any LARP or tabletop games. This is just me rambling. While not as bad as I was, I still have feelings for someone so my once stagnant mind is wondering about the modern dating scene, how people flirt, physical relations, and so on and so forth. Love is blind a lot of the time, even if you are being told by many sources (including yourself) that nothing will come of it. Being human is interesting and frustrating at times Current Mood: melancholy (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 23rd, 2009
6:41 pm	Yeah... Mother cannot guide you. Now you're on your own. Only me beside you. Still, you're not alone. No one is alone. Truly. No one is alone. Sometimes people leave you. Halfway through the wood. Others may decieve you. You decide whats good. You decide alone. But no one is alone. Mother isn't here now (Wrong things, right things) Who knows what she'd say? (Who can say what's true?) Nothings quite so clear now. (Do things, fight things,) Feel you've lost your way? You decide, but You are not alone Believe me, No one is alone No one is alone. Believe me. Truly You move just a finger, Say the slightest word, Somethings bound to linger Be heard No acts alone. Careful. No one is alone. People make mistakes. Fathers,Mothers, People make mistakes, Holding to their own, Thinking their alone. Honor their mistakes Everybody makes One another's terrible mistakes. Witches can be right, Giants can be good. You decide what's right you decide what's good Just remember: Someone is on your side (OUR side) Someone else is not While we're seeing our side (Our side..) Maybe we forgot: they are not alone. No one is alone. Hard to see the light now. Just don't let it go Things will come out right now. We can make it so. Someone is on your side No one is alone Current Mood: afraid (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 15th, 2009
8:14 pm	Yet Another Posting Some of you may have seen this elsewhere, but I thought I would cover my bases and post this here too. A link for pictures of where I currently living and some of the things I saw of my first day in Florida. I really do need to post more often. http://www.flickr.com/photos/38413658@N07/ Current Mood: Mew! Current Music: Roomies watching "Taken" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 29th, 2009
11:19 pm	Florida Attempted Brief update. I made it safe to Florida. Moved into the house with my limited items. Went to LARP, Jen broke her leg, so unpacking and organization basically halted. After a week I started to slowly look for work. Heard about Seaworld hiring for seasonal work. I got a ride to Seaworld HR and handed them my resume. After about 15 minutes I was called to the front, asked a few verification questions about my resume, and then asked if I had time today to speak with someone. I told them I did and shortly afterwards I was being interviewed. I was not prepared at all. I expected to hand in my resume, answer a few basic question (about availability) and then be told I'll be called in about two weeks. So here I was being interviewed with no research done and no questions prepped. After a rather easy going set of questions I was being told where I could get my drug test and fingerprinting done "Oh," said the HR rep, "I'm pushing you forward through the process. I hope you don't mind". I was surprised things were moving this swiftly. I expressed concern about the drug test (stating that I had gone to the bathroom before going there) she said it was not a problem since they did follicle testing. Best. Drug. Test. Evar! This, along with fingerprinting, was done on site. After having some chucks cut off I will out some additional paperwork, got fingerprinted, and was told to attend orientation. Between then and March 24th, my Orientation Date, I waited for a call to confirm or deny my employment. I had nothing to worry about through the drug and criminal screening. My concern was with ACS and my being terminated for tardiness. No call. Orientation roles around and we are told that if we are there we are hired. So, within a month of moving to Florida I am employed. I have a seasonal position within Aquatica within Admissions. For those who do not know, Aquatica is SeaWorld's new water park in Orlando. It's a little over a year old. That's whats going on right now. I have a place to live, a job, and now I just have to wait for the paycheck to start paying bills. Also, I either have come down with some type of nasal congestion. So, either I have some type of head cold that does not makes me tired or achy or I suddenly developed allergies. Heh. Balance Current Mood: Congested Current Music: "Oh, That Magic Kingdom in the Sky" - DaVinci's Notebook (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 18th, 2009
8:18 pm	Because It's Been Awhile....and I was Bored ( This is a Long Questionaire. You have been warned. ) Nothing too involved or personal. Just a fun thing. Edit: I changed my answer to Zoo Animal. I forgot to delete the previous person's answer Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Good Eats and a sewing machine (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 6th, 2009
11:10 pm	LARP I'm dirty... I'm tired... I'm covered in bug bites... I'm battered and bruised... I'm fixing broken items... I'm in three day old sweaty, mud covered clothes... I'm going to be very sore very soon... I'm at the hospital with my friend due to a fall that happened three feet from me... ...I am SO going again next month. Current Mood: geeky (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 15th, 2009
10:34 am	Geekery! So, this weekend is the MIT Mystery Hunt. Three days of huddling behind computers, performing potentially silly things, and having your brain explode from frustration at what species that damn cat is. I still hate you Booze Cat. Heading up to Revere tonight and then heading to Cambridge tomorrow. Got my clothes, by bits and baubles, what reference books I could muster, my bedding, and my bouncing geeky giddiness because I do not get intelligent and geeky interaction nearly as much as I should. I'm going to try to take more pictures this year. One of the many lessons learned from last year is that there is little to no "down time". I brought something that may help me unwind, or I'll just try to take a nap. I'm sure there will be a longer "ZOMFG Bees!" entry during or after the Hunt. To continue on the geekness: A while ago I was complaining to a friend that all the animated movies that are coming out recently are CGI. Movie after movie of computer generated talking animals. While I did enjoy some of these movies the medium is no longer exciting. Seeing individual hairs move and seeing the weaved pattern in a shirt was jaw dropping when Shrek came out, but now every one can do that. While it may not be shiny and perfect I have always liked stop motion animation and puppetry. There is more magic in those mediums then in the TBs of rendered data that we have been given. I "yelled" at Tim Burton. Basically saying, "You're the last person who does stop motion animation. Stop making live action movie and break out the wires and polymer!" Well, apparently someone was listening. I didn't quite get Burton, but it seems I was not incredible far off. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0327597/ On another note we got some snow before heading up. I wanted to see snow in NJ before moving to FL and I got it. It's a nice layer and it's pretty. Thank you! Current Mood: geeky (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 13th, 2009
10:45 pm	Questions Meme 1. I understand your drive to do what you dream to do, but sometimes don't you ever wonder if you are just following a dream too far? I think this would be easier to answer if I had a dream right now. I'm a bit lost at the moment. As for following a dream too far, I think it would depend on what defines as "too far". Living in a box in Chicago selling oil paintings to buy more oil paint, perhaps. I have not been there. I have not held onto a dream since I was a child. I have not gone through Hell to try to obtain it. In the end, I do not have enough personal information to properly answer this question. 2. Do you do things because they are what you want to do, or because it's something the family won't approve of? While in high school I did things for my own amusement as well as shock value. In college some of the more dramatic habits subsided, but I still liked the idea of being a burst of color in people's lives. Today, I am still odd and still do things that people think are weird. The prisma burst is now just a happy side effect. Throughout this time, while naive and immature, I did things because I actually liked them on some level. I do not remember doing anything just because my family would disapprove. 3. Ideally, where/what would you prefer to be right now? As for what: I would like to be grounded, aligned, and on my path-and staying there. As for where: I currently do not have a where. Someplace safe, warm, and with basic needs I guess. 4. Which is more important to you, friends or happiness? Happiness. No one physical thing can make someone happy. Happiness has to come from within. I'm still working on that part. 5. If you could choose anyone right now to be your lifetime companion, who would it be? I have no satisfying answer to this. I do not even know what I would want in a mate. I have not been looking and feel no compulsion to look, odd as that may sound. I think it's a case of "Love yourself before you can love others." so no perspective mates have been made clear to me. How this works is that if you want to be "interviewed" say so in a comment. The catch being you have to make a post in your own journal answering the questions. Current Mood: contemplative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 4th, 2009
10:37 pm	Random It seems something has happened to my blinking eyes. It was replaced with a Sub Mariner image. I don't know how this happened. No other images were altered which makes it that much stranger. I don't even think I have that image on the computer at the moment. Dr. Horrible will be replacing my default image for now. Poor Blinkie, what has happened to you? Current Mood: chilly (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 9th, 2008
2:45 pm	Oops Okays. I have realized that I have accidently been keeping people in the dark about some of my plans. There was no malice behind this, it was more along the idea of things were not concrete until now. For the past few months I have had the idea in my head to move...again. I have started to try a type of meditation-grounding. To take in positive, divine energy and to release negative thoughts/energy. While doing this I started to get the idea that I should move. To move to Florida of all places! When this feeling started to come through I did not try to logic it out. There is a reason I am being called to Florida. I don't know what it is right now, but I have a feeling it involves a friend living down there. There is a chance that it may not involve said friend at all. ::shrugs:: I shall see what happens when I get there. I don't have an exact date when I am going to be moving, but I have at least an idea of a method. I have started contacting people for information and input. More information needs to be gathered, but that is not going to stop the process. Part of me hopes that I will be able to get myself together enough to get my surgery done. So, people will have to come to sunny Florida to visit me while I recover. Now that I am starting to make more solid plans I am getting a little nervous as the move becomes more of reality then just a pipe dream. There are a lot of uncertainties-job, apartment, transportation, hurricanes, communication, distance, ect... So, the TL;DR version: I am moving to Florida, but I do not have an exact moving date. Some time early next year is the current plan Current Mood: lazy Current Music: Iron Chef- Noodle Battle (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 10th, 2008
8:02 pm	It Sucks to Be Me What do you do with a B.A. in English, What is my life going to be? Four years of college and plenty of knowledge, Have earned me this useless degree. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: Avenue Q- Opening Scene (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 19th, 2008
2:04 am	Meh, It's Amusing and I'm Bored at 2am 1. Grab the nearest book. 2. Open the book to page 234. 3. Find the fifth sentence. 4. Post the text of the next four to seven sentences on your LJ along with these instructions. 5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest [unless it's too troublesome to reach and is really heavy. Then go back to step 1]. "4 tablespoons butter, divided 2 lemons, cut in rounds Sprigs of fresh parsley Brown bread for serving Wash and thoroughly dry the herring fillets. Dip each fillet into the flour, then into the egg, and lastly the oatmeal, making sure that the fish is completely coated in each. " This is from The Celtic Folklore Cooking. The recipe is for Fried Herring in Oatmeal. It's a rather interesting book that can give the idea of period Irish food without doing a lot of research. If anyone wants the whole recipe just leave a comment and I'll get it to you Current Mood: Bored, but getting sleepy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 18th, 2008
8:22 pm	Short and Sweet FUCK YOU GRANDPA!!!! YOU ARE THE ASSHOLE YOU "THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING" SHIT! GET YOUR DOG TRAINED! I DON'T KNOW WHY MOM GOT THAT MUTT FOR YOU KNOWING THAT YOU DON'T DO SHIT. (Beagle-Spaniel mix) ENJOY YOUR BARKING, CHEWING, JUMPING, FIGHTING DOG YOU DICK. ...no good deed goes unpunished.... Current Mood: pissed off (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
2:26 pm	I think this is pretty self-explanatory... the new owners of LJ really do NOT get it yet. Perhaps a little dent in their posting statistics might make them notice.... the other action I like the idea of is EVERYONE adding "Anti-censorship" to their interests, seeing if it could get into the top interests! The one-day content strike is on for this Friday, March 21, from midnight GMT to midnight GMT. For 24 hours, we will not post or comment to LJ. Not in our own journals, not in communities. Not publicly, privately, or under friends-lock. This is a protest that will have long-lasting effects, showing up forever in the daily posting statistics. This is a protest that will not harm LJ in the long run, as leaving LJ might do. This is a protest that will demonstrate the power of community, as all users unite to support Basic users, the concept of adfree space, and our right to enjoy any interests we choose. This is a protest that will educate the new owners that LJ is driven by user-created content. How Can You Help? DO post about this in your own LJ. DO post and comment about it in appropriate communities. DO turn off LoudTwitter and your RSS feeds for 24 hours. DO feel free to friend me for updates, and defriend when the strike is over. DON'T forget to get permission from community mods before making an off-topic post or comment about the strike. DON'T be spammy with your posts or comments about the strike. DON'T forget to turn your LoudTwitter and RSS feeds back on when the strike is over. Appropriate Times The 24-hour strike will begin at the following times for the following locations: Thursday, March 20, 2:00 PM -- Honolulu Thursday, March 20, 4:00 PM -- Anchorage Thursday, March 20, 5:00 PM -- San Francisco; Los Angeles Thursday, March 20, 6:00 PM -- Mexico City; Denver Thursday, March 20, 7:00 PM -- Chicago Thursday, March 20, 8:00 PM -- Montreal; New York Thursday, March 20, 9:00 PM -- Buenos Aires Midnight -- London Friday, March 21, 1:00 AM -- Paris Friday, March 21, 2:00 AM -- Istanbul Friday, March 21, 3:00 AM -- Moscow Friday, March 21, 4:00 AM -- Dubai Friday, March 21, 5:00 AM -- Islamabad Friday, March 21, 6:00 AM -- Bangladesh Why Are We Striking? We are holding the Content Strike because we want the new owners of LiveJournal to better understand the power and resolve of the LJ Community of Users. We are holding the Content Strike because all of us, Paid, Permanent and Plus users as well as Basic, want to demonstrate our solidarity as a Community of Users. We do not consider Basic users to be freeloaders, we consider them to be valuable content-providers and Friends. We are holding the Content Strike because we ache to do something to show our displeasure, and commenting on the [info]news post -- even with cat macros -- just isn't powerful enough! The strike has four terms: 1. Restore basic accounts for new account creation. 2. Inform users before any change to the site that affects how we use the site or demands on our resources. 3. Run change proposals by the Advisory Board and take their advice into account before implementation of any change. 4. Homophobia, misogyny, and racism must not be a part of the decision making processes about appropriate content of the site, including what user interests are deemed appropriate. NOTE: We are aware that there may be good business decisions for eliminating Basic accounts. If Basic accounts are to be eliminated, though, that action should be taken only after approval of the Advisory Board and consultation with the LJ Community of Users. Will This Make Any Difference? The protests are making a difference. Within the last three hours (as of 3pm March 17, '08), the censored interests have been restored! If you look at the Popular Interests page, you will once again see the formerly filtered "fanfiction", "depression", "bisexuality" -- even "faeries". LiveJournal is once again presenting its true face to the world, not a sanitized blandness. Please continue to spread the word about the Content Strike. We are not merely consumers. We are a Community of Users, and we will be heard. LiveJournal Content Strike, Friday, March 21, midnight to midnight GMT. No posts. No comments. No content. Current Mood: curious (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 11th, 2008
4:04 pm	MIt Mystery Hunt The MIT Mystery Hunt happens every year on Martin Luther King Weekend. The ultimate point of this event is find a coin hidden somewhere on MIT campus. This is done by answering puzzles whose answers are linked to things called Meta Puzzles, the answers to the Meta Puzzles are linked to a Meta Meta puzzle whose answer leads to puzzling team to the coin. The team that finds the coin gets to run the next year's hunt. It's a literal meeting of the minds. People from all over and of high intelligence come to this event. It's quite staggering to know you might be sitting across from someone who is a certified genius. ( Full as possible report on this event. LONG! ) I will take what I learned this year and use it to kick butt next year. I hope we win for several reasons...one of them being that I want to be a part of a puzzle and help out behind the scenes. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 9th, 2008
11:46 pm	Engrish I am Me of two homes and seven moms! Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 9th, 2007
1:42 pm	The Golden Compass Quickie Dear people bitching about in The Golden Compass: Let's get some things clear. First, it's not a kid's movie. Just because the protagonist is a child does not mean it is meant for people the same age. Look at "The Shining" for example. There is a child in that-is that a kid's movie? Do some research about a the book on which the movie is based before taking your child to go see it. Second, people are complaining about anti-religion themes in the movie...guess what, they are there! Yes, a continuing theme throughout the trilogy is not blindly following an organized religion. It's bashing The Church (since that's what it's called in the books), deal with it. On the same note the trilogy is not about children killing God. (Asriel is the one who wants to do that.)SPOILER ALERT The Authority is not killed by anyone. He fades away and becomes part of everything just like the people from the Land of the Dead. END OF SPOILER In summary don't base all your opinions on the movie. Read the books, make your own educated decision, and stop waving your Bibles and babies in my face. In super summary: STFU! Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 8th, 2007
1:09 pm	Random Quiz This is a quiz that was made for the webcomic The Awakened. Very nice art work and a cool story. Go and read it! You'll find an awesome new comic to read and you will be able to understand this quiz! </form> What Kind of Awakened Are You? by SADCAT What's your nickname? What did you want to be when you grew up? What is your LEAST favourite colour? You will be awakened on this date: September 12, 2039 Your waker will be... A sugar glider Hunter. Your Station will be: A FIGHTER If you are a FIGHTER, your new species will be a.. Neutral-aligned Hippocampus If you are a FIGHTER you will have the power to... Fight with enhanced precision allowing every hit to land with a weapon or otherwise If you are a HUNTER you will become... A Good-aligned Hunter with the animal form of a rhinoceros. If you are an ELEMENT you will become... A Neutral-aligned Element of Communication As a FIGHTER or ELEMENT, your level of power is: Miniscule Your eventual death will be caused by: Natural causes Chances of being remembered as a great soldier: 100% Woo!! I wonder how Hippocampi would walk on land? Maybe I would be able to grow legs for land missions and retract them for water. Or maybe I wouldn't be able to go onto the land at all....I think I feel a drawing coming on.... Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 1st, 2007
9:13 am	The Cake is a Lie! I tend to be a little behind on games that are being released. I heard about the Orange Box and thought it was cool and that maybe one day I should buy it since I'm interested in the story going on in the second Half Life game. But, now I really want to buy it. While only thinking there was Halflife 1, Halflife 2, and an expansion. While going through a few LJ's I came across this video: A quick info bite for those who may not know: Portal is a game that comes with the Orange Box, takes place in the Half Life universe, and Johnathon Coulton is a phenomenal singer/composer (Plug for him! )My first thought was "Ooo! Someone made that robot move and shift colours in its fiber optic hair!" Then I was listening to the song and thought it was amusing and was surprised by the mention of Black Mesa. You see, I had not heard of Portal so I didn't know that it was in the Orange Box. After hearing the song I looked up info on the game and found it to be a first person puzzle game. I also looked up what the plot synopsis was and actually managed to find a video for the final part of the game. ( Potential and/or Portal Spoilers Ahead ) Awesome creepy game that I still want to buy and play even though I know how it ends. Uh, in other news I have been kitchen crew for an SCA feast and plan on going to the MIT Mystery Hunt Current Mood: hungry Current Music: "Still Alive" - Jonathon Coulton (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 16th, 2007
12:19 am	Thoughts About Breast Reduction It was mentioned to me that I should post my thoughts and experiences as I go through the steps of breast reduction. I thought this was a good idea as I plan to look at blogs and forums to see what people have said. I'll start small since I technically should be trying to get to sleep so I can wake up on time tomorrow. I remember that I first wanted a breast reduction at the age of 14. But, I could not legally get one until the age of 16. I am now 25 and I have still not had a reduction. Some of it was not having insurance or the money, but a lot of it was fear. The idea of having surgery really scares me. I was put under for my wisdom teeth and I starting having a fit in the chair out of fear when they got the IV. I'm scared waking up in pain, I'm scared about the recovery process, and of course I'm scared of the "what ifs" while I'm under. There are many reasons why I want a breast reduction. I have had large breasts for a very long time. I developed early and I developed large. I have problems finding clothing and undergarments that fit properly. Since I have to buy larger clothes I look fatter then I am. While I am a bigger female I am not an orb. I am a little soft around the edges with some curves-even with a reduction I would have nice curves. The weight on my chest has caused great stress to my back. I have had back pain for many, many years. I have horrid posture due to wanting/needing to hunch over. It was a want at first because I was ashamed of my breasts in school. I was harassed for having them. As the years went on it became a need. If I sit straight it's hard to do anything in front of me. Yes, they are that large. With a properly built support system I could but any bouncy anime girl to shame. Anyway, I can't stand or sit up straight without being in pain. Something that causes physical and mental pain can not be a good thing. I had tried to get a reduction a few years ago. My primary agreed to write a letter. I went to see a plastic surgeon and when I got the letter from my insurance company saying that I was denied for being overweight for my height. I was 5ft6in then, but I'm now 5ft5in....I'm convinced that my spine compressed from these things... I don't know what they expected of me. My breasts have always been large even when I was starving myself to lose weight. I had DD and was barely eating, explain how everything else was shrinking but not my breasts. Meh. As mentioned earlier I am now 25, have moved out of my mom's house, even out of the state in which I was born. I currently live with a very good friend who has decided to nip at my rear to finally get this done. I've taken a few further steps then just getting a swift kick in the butt and thinking about seeing a doctor. But I think I'll post about that next time Current Mood: tired Current Music: "Re: Your Brains" - Jonathan Coulton (3 Comments |Comment on this)